Often we don’t want to see the ‘what’ – it doesn’t fit with what we expect or prefer, or it might be too painful to take in. So we distract ourselves with ‘why?’ which leads to constant thinking and analysis, often repetitive and circular. I sometimes liken the why – thoughts to seductive dancing showgirls, flashy and taking up all the attention – trying to distract from the discomfort of the present, of what is actually so now. It doesn’t mean that it isn’t helpful to see connections and to have some idea why things happen the way they do. But when we analyze things obsessively and repetitively, it blocks out our intuition and clear seeing. When there is space, the ‘why’ often just pops up unbidden, without any thinking at all, when there is enough space for it to emerge. We can never really know all the reasons why things happen, and how those causes inter-relate. We see the limits of our ability to understand, and how much of a vast mystery our world is. Yet it can be terrifying to think we are adrift in an ocean of events without really knowing for sure why anything happens. It can be hard to face that directly, so we distract ourselves from the aliveness of the mystery by putting life into an explainable set of boxes. In reality, everything affects everything else, everything relates to everything else. The complexity of this inter-relatedness defies description. Yet we still look for simple explanations to account for what we see, unaware of the blinders obscuring our vision. Deep understanding never lies in the cognitive world of why, but in directly experiencing the ambiguous complexity of “what.
If you are unhappy, be unhappy. Do not judge yourself for being that way. It is wonderful to be unhappy, it makes happiness all the sweeter. Love your unhappiness. It means you are ready for change. Allow the unhappiness, there is purposefulness in it. Remove from your life everything that inhibits you from being the totality of yourself. This is called “becoming”. Remove from your thoughts all the have to’s, should’s, must’s. Remove the images you think you must be and just be. Embrace your life. Know that you created it. Love all that you have been, said and done. Know it was all purposeful. Never see anything as a failure. See everything as an accomplishment. Love the hurt, the pain, the sorrow. For what an experience! What a wonderment! What jewels of wisdom are now in your treasure! Be your own teacher, friend, counsel. Confide in yourself, speak to yourself. Seek answers that feel right within your soul. Your soul knows what the truth is, and it will tell you through feelings. Always listen to your feelings. They know … they know. Live, experience, feel. Do not seek to identify yourself. You will never have a point of understanding from which you can say, “This is who I am!”, for in each expanding moment of consciousness, you will have changed into the next moment of being. To know who you are is to feel what you feel each moment. Never do anything, no matter how far you are into it, if you lose the joy of it and it becomes monotonous and mundane. Do away with it and do something else that brings happiness. For perhaps what you needed to learn from it you have already achieved. Go wherever you want to go, do whatever you want to do, for as long as you want to. Create only for the mere joy of creating. When you create for you, you will soon find yourself living in joy. Don’t ever strive to have anyone understand you. If they wish to understand, they will. Love everyone. Have compassion for all other entities. You do not need to go and take care of them. Love them by allowing them to express however they choose. That is the greatest thing you can do! If they are angered or disappointed by your life, love them by allowing them to be they way. Then you have become a great light, you have understood the essence.
No matter what happens to any of us in life, if we know someone believes in us, if we know someone loves us, it can make all the difference in our world. In turn we can make such a difference in other people’s lives if we only believe in them. And ultimately no matter what happens, we always have each other, for we have all been down the same paths and share the same heart. I believe that everything we will ever need or hope to find is already within us. I believe that life is the path and we should simply be happy to walk it regardless of the destination. I learn everyday the value of not only believing in myself but by believing in you.
Words may be your instruments,
I play with silence.
Buzz may whirl your presence,
I am happy solitary.
You may run after aspirations,
I walk with contentment.
Time may suppress your dreams,
I am living my dream.
You may treasure the illusions,
This life is my possession.
You may hear all false in truth,
I hear truths in lie.
Ceaseless moulding may distort you,
I reform distortions.
Reasons may govern your existence,
I prefer this heart.
Relations may be servile for you,
I am identified by them.
Tears may fade the smiles you smiled,
I cherish those drops.
You may need to hide behind veils,
I have my head held high.
Questions may ruin all your lessons.
I am an answer myself.
You may call yourself ‘the perfect’,
I work towards perfection.
You may end up going under,
I rise with every move.
Obtrusive breakdowns may break you,
I rise from pieces.
You may say you wish to be me,
I say…. it’s you!
I just finished the book Illusions: The Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah by Richard Bach
The book centers around a character by the name of Donald Shimoda who crosses paths with the narrator, Richard. As they travel the countryside together as barnstormers, selling joy rides on their small planes, Shimoda is revealed to be a “messiah”.
The book brings the truly simple, yet profoundly complex theory of life, into perspective making one feel that they may be able to conquer all of their insecurities by simply always being happy. But happiness seems to be one of the hardest feelings to be and hold on to, for all of us, so how do we start?
With thoughtful, and deep quotes and a beautiful story line, Bach explains the secrets of the world and then undermines them all. He portrays a new way of looking at life. It's the same world, yet different, because the Messiah is a normal automobile mechanic, who heals people and teaches Richard about the Illusions of life, and how he can overcome them. This book is full of wonderful teachings to apply to one's own life.
Shimoda passes along the wisdom of many lifetimes to Richard, who in fact may be a messiah-in-training. These include gems like:
“You’re like everybody else. You already know this stuff—you’re just not aware that you know it, yet.”
and
“Believe you know all answers, and you know all answers.”
Illusions does what good spiritual fiction should do. It gets you to see the world from a fresh perspective, looking at seemingly ordinary events in a new way. The book also gets across the important point that wisdom gained is not to be coveted by its owners, but needs to be shared with others.
Bach closes the story with one of many choice passages from a book of wisdom that pops up throughout Illusions:
“Here is a test to find whether your mission on earth is finished. If you’re alive, it isn’t.”
The book is really about how to develop yourself, how to exceed your own expectations and how you may use the people around you as teachers to get the knowledge you need and to get self-realization. These things are really the underline of the book and the story is more of a metaphor to express the real message that the author wants to deliver. I believe the best thing about this book is that everyone who reads it can identify themselves with the message and also understand it differently.
The larger statement here is that each of us has in us, the power to make our own path just the way we want it, if only we let go.
To quote, “Argue for your limitations, and sure enough, they’re yours”.
In life you face unimaginable challenges, some a blessing, some nightmares, some tough, some you just can bluff. But how do you prepare yourself?
You know the truth, you feel it, you believe it, but deep down inside you know there's more, there something wrong, something strong deep within lingers on! How does it work? Do you believe in one and ignore the other? One part good, the other evil, do you take the gain & forget the pain?
I'm an analyser, so I've been told, maybe I do, yes I do, don't we all? Even though we say we don't or we think we don't we all do, it's a matter of knowing your mind. How do you pick a side when your heart & your mind is at war? Do you give in or do you fight? Do you let one win or the other lose?
Sometimes things are not simple, sometimes what we firmly believe maybe an illusion, maybe it's not, maybe it is, nothing tangible but such big weight! Conversations, implications, statements, screams and tears all this could add up to be a maze, endless & lifeless. Judgment is everything, you choose not because you have to, but you want to. Realise that life calls but once, unless answered it just runs away.
Actions need not have meanings, need not have motives, without a reason, but it depends on situation to people.
If my heart needs proof, it'll ask, but it doesn't, and it also understands where I stand, in between, it knows, it just chooses not to pierce through, not accept pain but let it flow with time.
I do, I want to, If not, I'd never!
Sometimes, I like being alone...
being alone with no one but my thoughts that swirl round and round in my head
being alone and not having to worry about what anyone else thinks about me
being alone and not having to go any place but where I want to be.
Sitting here alone, I’m letting recollections flood me after a long time. I close my eyes, sigh deeply, and let the memories come rushing in....